Whooboy. Seven hour drive down on Friday, 8 am to 8 pm on the ground on Saturday, and a seven hour drive back today. Am I exhausted? Yes. Subhuman? Also yes. Was it worth it? YES.
YALLFest was perhaps more incredible this year than last year, which is hard to believe! I saw so many author panels, took so many notes, and managed to have composed conversations with two separate authors, which is frankly a miracle. Perhaps one of the best moments of the day was when my friends and I, who had been standing in line for an hour and a half to have donuts with some authors, found out that we had actually been standing in line for that as well as THREE FREE BOOKS and a tote bag. That was when the adrenaline hit, and it never really wore off throughout the day.
I think the person who impacted me the most was Patrick Ness, which is surprising. I went in as a casual fan of his books, and left with the profundity of his wisdom echoing around my body. I didn’t expect to be so impacted by what he had to say, but every other sentence out of his mouth was a pearl. One of the things he stressed was how he doesn’t see a real divide between “fantasy” and “realistic fiction”. Every story is fantastical, with its contrivances, coincidences, and destiny that work to make the story happen. And truth occurs in every story, regardless of genre. “Truth anywhere.”
During the opening keynote Ness said “if you don’t see yourself in a book, you are implicitly harmed”, because the intrinsic message is one of exclusion. He spoke at length about his newest book, Release, and his words really hit home, especially when he spoke about hoping that the book would undo shame in the people who read it, shame that is generated through each instance of exclusion, literary and societal.
Listening to what he had to say really shone a light on what I need to work on in my own practice, and that is honesty. Honesty with my narrative and with myself. I think I have attempted to sanitize my writing too much and distance it from raw, emotional, human experience, and I need to bring that back. I know I had it before–I tend to edit it out a bit more with each draft. I need to focus on being honest with myself about who I am, and honest with my writing about what it is and what I want it to do.
*This is the first post in a series reflecting on what I learned at YALLFest, author by author. Stay tuned for next week.*